That mom…yeah that’s the kind of mom I am…completely paranoid and worried about every little thing. I tell myself it’s got be “first time mommy syndrome” right? I mean that’s what everyone says, that with the first baby you’re so paranoid about everything but by the second kiddo your sooo much more relaxed and easy going.
Well there are several things that have really gotten to me since having my little guy.
#1 My milk supply
This was one of my biggest fears from even before I had him, during my pregnancy I was constantly wondering if I’d even be able to breastfeed in the first place and then if I could keep up my milk supply. I joined a support group on FB for women to share tips and advice during their BFing experience, which has really helped, but has also led me to the dreaded comparison factor. Seeing these women pump tons of milk on a daily basis made me feel so intimidated because I felt like I couldn’t even compare to them, thus meaning perhaps I wasn’t making enough milk for my little guy.
Believe me I did tons of google searches to help ease my worries, but even then other demons took over my brain, things such as thrush, mastitis, baby’s preferring one breast over the other..…you name it I thought I had it. (So maybe WebMD isn’t so fabulous after all?!)
While I still sometimes wonder if things are going well, there are few things that I’ve tried to incorporate in my diet to help boost my milk supply..(or so they’ve been said to..)
Hello oatmeal, you’re my best friend!
LOTS & LOTS of oatmeal, if it works great, if not it’s fine I’m at least eating something healthy and that’s really all that matters.
Brewers Yeast…taste AWFUL but worth it if it works…if not…it’s bound to have some health benefits right? Lol
P.s. I totally loved this site because it helped me stay sane when my worries about milk supply kept attacking my little exhausted brain.
#2 Holding him “too much”
There’s this thing in our Hispanic cultural that if you hold babies too much they’ll become accustomed to it so much that they become fussy little monsters when you put them down…..Ok so maybe not “monsters’ per se, but you will definitely have a hard time with your little bundle of joy if they become “embracilado” or spoiled from being held too much. The problem is no one tells you how much is “too much”?? (Ok..now where’s the newborn manual for parents?) I feel as though I can read my little guy a lot better than my husband can, (duh! I’m at home with him all day and hubby isn’t) So it gets to me when my hubby holds the baby from the minute he gets home til bedtime. I get it, they need to bond, but I also feel that hubby needs to learn to read baby’s different cries and then act accordingly. I guess I’m asking him to be more mom-like early on, and instead I just need let him take his time to get to know the baby more and quit worrying that little guy will be embracilado. I felt that we were both on two seperate pages and we need to get it together and both be on the same one. Honestly, after much consideration and actually thinking about it instead of worrying so much, I don’t care really how much is “too much,” because in the end, a happy held baby is better than a crying unheld baby in our book. I have to stop worrying about trying to be perfect parents and hold baby Aiden whenever he needs it.
#3 Germs are everywhere and I’ve got to sanitize everything.
I was NEVER a germ-a-phobe before…not the slightest bit. However, since having Mr. Aiden, the thought of his blanket touching a nasty grocery cart full of millions of germs FREAKS ME OUT! Pet hair on baby’s stuff…. Oye! Between that and the millions of germs, let’s just say my washing machine gets daily use sometimes…(Ugh! & the thought of the germs IN the washer & dryer…ahhh!) So call me CRAZYY! Yes, I know…I can’t protect him for everything, and that if I over-sanitize I’ll end up doing more harm then good, so I’m slowly trying to let loose and not be so paranoid for his sake and mine.
#4 Feeling guilty for taking some “me” time..
This one is the strangest for me because my “me” time has always consisted of being active, working out, going to the gym, etc…I always told myself prior having my little guy that I would HAVE to make some time for myself to workout for my mental, physical and emotional health. The only thing I didn’t consider was that that whole concept is a lot easier said than done. I’m not saying I can’t go literally…my issue is that I don’t want to go because I feel guilty leaving him just to have some selfish “me” time. Only in reality, it isn’t selfish at all, in fact it’s something I SHOULD do, not just for me, but for my husband and my sweet baby boy.
So though things have clearly changed in the last couple of months, in the end I’ve realized that although I will worry about every little thing from now until forever, I can’t let all of these little things get to me and I’ve got to learn to adapt….and I will it’s just a matter of working at. 😉
Sorry for the long post, and my lack of recent posting,
I’ve been too busy killing germs, raising a beautiful baby boy! 🙂
By the way….who wouldn’t want to hold this sweet little face ALL day??….I mean really!! Embracilado? WHO CARES!! 😛 haha